"Part Time Friends" aka "Fair Weather Friends"

Okay - so I've kinda been having this issue with people who are only friends when it's convenient for them. Ya know, when they want something/need something/don't wanna be alone/etc etc etc...?! I'm so over this whole theory, I'm sick and tired of people who only want a friend when it's convenient for them. I'm either and all weather friend, or no friend at all! I don't like this whole idea behind "I only want to be friends when it's convenient for me" theory, I'd just as soon loose a friend over that kinda stuff than keep them when I don't mean much to them.

My friendships are about quality NOT quantity, and I've noticed that so many people lately are all about whose got more "friends"! Why does it matter if you've got 300 or 3,000 friends? If you don't know 3/4 of the people that you're "friends" with then why bother having them in your life?! I just don't understand why, why people can't stand to be friends ALL the time or NONE of the time.

Here's my thought. If you're from my hometown and we hardly talk, then to me it's understandable - we're 500 miles away! BUTTTTTTT if we're "new" friends, friends since I've moved to VA, and you can't find time to keep me as a part of your life - then see ya. I'm not asking for contact EVERY day, I'm not asking to spend time with you every waking moment, I'm simply asking for a text or a phone call or a quick message here and there saying "hey, how ya doin?" Is that too much to ask? Like, I'm honestly asking if that is too much to ask? I know life is crazy, I know life can be super busy, but fact of the matter is when my husband came home from being away for a YEAR I still tried to text/call/keep in contact with everyone at least a little...

Anyways, that's my rant, my run down, my big mouth voicing how I feel!

Today is a happier day :)

To those of you that are concerned for me, and haven't yet spoken with me since my last post - I'm fine. I promise. Like I said, sometimes in life I fall down (pretty often actually) and loose myself, my motivation, and the fire that is usually lit under my ass. It happens to everyone, but most people can pick themselves up and keep on moving without noticing it - most of the time I can too. Sometimes I just need a boost, a friend, and shove in the right direction. Knowing people were concerned for me is a good thing, knowing people are worried for mine and my daughter's well being is a great feeling, but I promise everyone (if there's anyone) that reads this: I will never put my daughter, myself, my family, or my life in a situation that may become potentially hazardous or dangerous in ANY way! If I feel that I need to be on medicine to handle my personal stuff, I will be and I will NOT be ashamed to be because that's what would be best for my family!

Anyways, I'm past that. The drama queen has ruffled her feathers and taken a walk to Hollywood (at least that's where she SHOULD go if she's gonna be SO dramatic!) and is no longer a concern of mine. :D A couple good friends of mine gave me a handful of good laughs this evening, and yesterday, which has definitely bumped my mood. The kiddo has been (mostly.. but what almost 2 years is ALWAYS?!) well behaved, I got a good 2 hour nap in today, and my photography facebook page is growing in leaps and bounds. I'm super stoked to get my dream moving and make my photography my reality, instead of just a dream! :D

I've got another post brewing about "Part Time Friends" but that's gonna wait for another day, I'm going to simmer in the happiness that is today and run with it :)

This is ME!

So, I've been a horrible blogger lately.. but oh well.

I've had a few emotional impacts in my journey in the last few days, and I've come to this conclusion. I'm ME! Take me. Leave me. Love me. Hate me. I DON'T CARE ANYMORE!!!!

If I'm not the kind of person you want to surround yourself with, leave. If you don't like what I have to say on Facebook or in my day to day rantings, LEAVE. If you are offended that I am who I am, leave!

I am sick of buttering up to people, sick of being nice because I don't want to hurt people's feelings. I'm sick of trying to be TOO nice and being walked all over.

Guess what, sometimes life is hard for me and sometimes I just need a day - or 2, or 14 - to get back on MY feet and stand up for myself again.. it happens that I do so often fall down. Sometimes I can get up again on my own, sometimes I need a little shove, but at the end of the day if you want to be my friend - COOL! If you decide that what I've said is offensive, rude, outlandish, or just flat out not YOUR type of talk - WALK AWAY!

I'm sick of this, sick of being nice, sick and flipping tired of people thinking that because I'm sad, or lonely, that I need a doctor - I DON'T! I'm not clinically depressed, I'M JUST SAD! I'm not suicidal, I JUST WANNA HIT SOMETHING (sometimes! but who doesn't?!)

I'm not going to put myself OR MY DAUGHTER in danger, if that WERE the case I'd commit myself without a second thought. 

I'm a mother, I'm a wife, I'm proud of who I am and where I'm going in my life and if you can't support me, my decisions, my profession, or my family - then fuck off!

Bad blogging mommy!

I know, slap me on the wrist, I keep slipping up. But, life is life and it's insane some days more than others, and those that aren't so insane and I don't have to bea the computer I'm not wanting to be. I promise, I've got lots more opinions, feelings, and vents/rants to go on in the near future!!

PLEASE KEEP WATCHING OUT FOR MY WRITINGS! :P

RIP Navy Seal Team 6

I'm only going to say this once; like it or don't, that's your choice::

Loosing 31 MORE people to this war is sad, it's bad, and there's NOTHING good about it.. but if we did not have men/women willing to sacrifice their lives for everything that we - as the USA - stand for then we'd have been taken over by who knows which country by now. I do not defend anyone in particular in saying this; but I do not feel as though it's anyone's fault but the Taliban. They rammed OUR airplanes into the twin towers, they have killed hundreds of our soldiers since this war began, and THEY are the reason we continue to loose wonderful soldiers and people every single day. People, like the Navy Seal Team 6, are people that are PROUD to fight for our country and would've much more preferred to have "gone down" while doing what they love and fighting for this country than had they fallen "gone down" in their sleep!! My heart will forever go out to ALL the families that have lost a member, all the friends that have lost someone, and ALLLL the men and women who have paid the ULTIMATE sacrifice in this time of war; but don't think they won't go down in history and don't think that each and every one of them won't be remembered decades from now for being some of the most courageous, honorable, and loyal soldiers and citizens a person could be.

So, instead of taking this time to "blame" someone why don't we all just stop and appreciate their service, mourn for their loss, and REMEMBER THEM because that's the biggest honor we can give people of that caliber whom are fighting for our freedom!

Thank you to those that fight and those that have paid the ultimate sacrifice! No one can say the right words to make it right but I hope they know their losses will NOT go down in vaine! May they ALL RIP♥