...Why try??

Have you every met someone that you just wonder to yourself "Why do I keep trying to help this person when they don't even want to help themselves?" yet you continue to try to help them?

Yeah - I'm one of those people. One of those "I'll never give up on you" (ya know, kinda like in the overly dramatic Titantic scene). Sometimes, I hate it. Sometimes, it's rewarding. Most of the time, it's annoying. I like people, I'm a "people person" as they go, I tend to thrive on interaction with other people - in most cases.

In this case, it's a point in time that I've got to learn to walk away and teach myself that people aren't going to accept help if they won't help themselves. In the life I live there are a LOT of people who just don't get what it is to just enjoy life, live life to the fullest, be happy, and appreciate the things they DO have instead of the things that they DON'T have. I try to help these people who focus on the negative, I try to help them see the positive and remind them that they do have a lot to be thankful for, a lot to be happy about, and that some days are hard but there is always the next day and that - if they let it - it CAN be better than the bad day they had today.

I just really wonder if some people are "worth" focusing so much time on. Even with all this wondering, all this curiosity, and annoyance on the whole subject.. I still do it. I still try. I still care. I'll keep going, keep trying, and keep doing until I can no longer help.

Memorial Day Weekend

Memorial day holds a special place in my heart for so many reasons. Those reasons are very valuable to me and I hope that everyone can find a reason to be thankful for this 3 or 4 day weekend from work, the freedoms we have as Americans, and the amazing men and women who have/are/will serve this beautiful Country!!

This is the reason we remember them, because they DESERVE it!! They've earned the right to have a holiday to be honored and remembered, they fight for us and our freedoms as American citizens!!

Thank you not only to those that have served IN the military and paid the ultimate sacrifice, but ALSO to the FAMILIES that have lost their loved ones.. thank you to those military spouses who every day live life without their other half, their son, their father, their brother or sister - I thank you from the bottom of my heart!

A little about my life...

My life.. hmmm. It's definitely interesting, fast-paced, unpredictable, and mostly fabulous. My husband and I have been married for 2 years as of this past March 25th, and our daughter just turned 18 months old on the 9th of May. Currently I reside about 10 minutes from one of the biggest destination locations in the world, originally I'm from about 500 miles North of here, this is my first time ever living away from home or my family. Things on my own can get tough, but none-the-less I still wouldn't trade this life for the World, even if you offered it to me on a pretty China dish on a beautiful silver platter. I believe when life gets tough.. ya gotta get tougher than that, ya gotta stay a step ahead of the game and expect the unexpected, and more than anything ya just gotta be you!

This blog will confuse some I'm sure, throw others for a doozy, and probably be super random and possibly on occasion a little out of the ordinary. I have many random thoughts, I think of many random songs, and there will be days when I won't post anything other than possibly a quote that just perfectly describes my life in that moment in time.

As for me - just me - I like to think of myself as fun-loving, a pet lover, and someone who just doesn't care what anyone thinks about her anymore. I spent a lot of time, TOO MUCH time, worrying about who was thinking what about me... but in the end - what good does that do ME?! So, now.. I don't care! :) The people I love mean the world to me and I don't stand for anyone being mean, rude, or immature towards them. I speak my mind without hesitation - some people say my brain to mouth filter is broken, I guess it's an accurate way of describing me most days. I'm an open book, if someone asks me a question 99.9% of the time I'll answer them without any hesitation. I have nothing to hide, I'm not ashamed of who I am, and I believe everything happens for a reason. I do believe there is a God, I also believe in Astrology and yoga - apparently I can't seem to make up my mind (that's typical of me though...you'll see!) and it doesn't bother me in the least. I attempted one career for too long and spent far too much money on college only to not receive a degree and to choose a COMPLETELY different career path. Right now I edit photos for a real estate photographer, it gets a little tedious sometimes but I work from home on my own schedule (more or less) and I don't have to put my daughter in daycare - so it's a win-win for me. Currently I am in the process of trying to begin a photography business - I have never felt so complete in a career path as I do when I stand behind my camera and capture the moments that mean so much to people. I'm better at nature and still photography for right now, but I'm working on learning many many other things (it's a career where you can NEVER know it all and I love that!). I used to have an incredible passion for learning, but that passion has faded since I failed to achieve my longest standing goal (ya know, the one that I decided not to do after spending WAY too much money on college.. yeah, that one). I'm trying with all my might to figure out who I am, where I'm going, and where I want to end up.

But, for now, I'm enjoying my life here on the beach as a mommy and wife.. taking life a day at a time.