So, I've been a horrible blogger lately.. but oh well.
I've had a few emotional impacts in my journey in the last few days, and I've come to this conclusion. I'm ME! Take me. Leave me. Love me. Hate me. I DON'T CARE ANYMORE!!!!
If I'm not the kind of person you want to surround yourself with, leave. If you don't like what I have to say on Facebook or in my day to day rantings, LEAVE. If you are offended that I am who I am, leave!
I am sick of buttering up to people, sick of being nice because I don't want to hurt people's feelings. I'm sick of trying to be TOO nice and being walked all over.
Guess what, sometimes life is hard for me and sometimes I just need a day - or 2, or 14 - to get back on MY feet and stand up for myself again.. it happens that I do so often fall down. Sometimes I can get up again on my own, sometimes I need a little shove, but at the end of the day if you want to be my friend - COOL! If you decide that what I've said is offensive, rude, outlandish, or just flat out not YOUR type of talk - WALK AWAY!
I'm sick of this, sick of being nice, sick and flipping tired of people thinking that because I'm sad, or lonely, that I need a doctor - I DON'T! I'm not clinically depressed, I'M JUST SAD! I'm not suicidal, I JUST WANNA HIT SOMETHING (sometimes! but who doesn't?!)
I'm not going to put myself OR MY DAUGHTER in danger, if that WERE the case I'd commit myself without a second thought.
I'm a mother, I'm a wife, I'm proud of who I am and where I'm going in my life and if you can't support me, my decisions, my profession, or my family - then fuck off!
Personally, I know nothing about what you are going through...I don't know the details behind this blog but you are a friend of mine on FB and I've read your posts and I don't get why someone would make you feel bad about them. If someone is acting as though you are mentally unstable because you have days that you don't feel like peaches and cream...well then to be honest, something must be wrong with them!! LOL No one is happy 24/7. I hope that whoever is not being supportive or understanding should keep their mouths shut and like you said, walk away. I am like you, always trying to see the good in people, going above and beyond to be good to people. Truth of the matter is though, friendship should be equal. If people are being anything less than supportive in your time of need, delete them without a second thought!! You are better off.
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